Overwhelmed
So there a lot of other things I could be doing, should be doing, have been doing, but here I am, writing a blog. It's been far too long.
Honestly I'm not entirely sure what to talk about. I can tell you stories. I'll probably end up with way more than I thought I might write, but what's new?
I think if I could think of a word to describe the past few months of being here, it would be overwhelmed. In both the good and the bad sense of the world.
I have recognized once again a tendency I have in my life to over commit. I'm sure you've never noticed. You know that compulsive problem I have of saying yes to everything. Yes, I want to get coffee. Yes, I want to plan that. Yes, I want to teach that. Yes, I will sing. Yes, I will make dinner. Yes, I will go see a movie. Yes, I want to be in that bible study. Yes, I want to read that book. Yes...
Saying yes sometimes brings freedom. I've been learning that sometimes "no" brings freedom too. I have to know it's ok if I don't host every party or go to every book or bible study offered. If I don't offer to help plan every school event. If I don't say yes to every skype date, every hang out time.
Sometimes saying no means saying yes to something else. Saying yes to spending more one on one time with people I really can concentrate on building relationships with. Saying yes to spending time reflecting, studying the word, and being with God. Maybe even just taking a nap. Let me tell you I'm still not good at this. But I want to be. The thing is I have the best teacher. I know that Jesus knew when to say yes and when to say no. He knew when to be with people and when to go off on his own. It's a beautiful thing the rest and relationship he had/has with his father.
A few other thoughts:
- Everyone has been asking me about next year. Despite my frustrations and lots of questions, I still don't know. I am waiting to hear back on some questions I have about financial need from the school. At this point I can't imagine doing anything else next year, but I still hate not knowing for sure. So for now, I am trying to enjoy each day and where I am at.
- My students are still providing me with so much joy and a purpose to each day. However, they are definitely starting to turn into middleschoolers. Prayers would be appreciated as I learn to help them prepare for the next stage in their lives.
Somethings I have been doing lately:
- lots of school
- helping with youth group
- helping with nursery at church
- Bible Study
- Book Study on Multiply
- hanging out with people
- got to have my parents come visit! and go on an awesome vacation too! Loved it!
Prayer Requests:
- My students: that they would hunger after God and ask questions and learn from me daily
- answers and provision for next year
- the ability to say yes and no to things when necessary
Until next time,
Honestly I'm not entirely sure what to talk about. I can tell you stories. I'll probably end up with way more than I thought I might write, but what's new?
I think if I could think of a word to describe the past few months of being here, it would be overwhelmed. In both the good and the bad sense of the world.
I have recognized once again a tendency I have in my life to over commit. I'm sure you've never noticed. You know that compulsive problem I have of saying yes to everything. Yes, I want to get coffee. Yes, I want to plan that. Yes, I want to teach that. Yes, I will sing. Yes, I will make dinner. Yes, I will go see a movie. Yes, I want to be in that bible study. Yes, I want to read that book. Yes...
Saying yes sometimes brings freedom. I've been learning that sometimes "no" brings freedom too. I have to know it's ok if I don't host every party or go to every book or bible study offered. If I don't offer to help plan every school event. If I don't say yes to every skype date, every hang out time.
Sometimes saying no means saying yes to something else. Saying yes to spending more one on one time with people I really can concentrate on building relationships with. Saying yes to spending time reflecting, studying the word, and being with God. Maybe even just taking a nap. Let me tell you I'm still not good at this. But I want to be. The thing is I have the best teacher. I know that Jesus knew when to say yes and when to say no. He knew when to be with people and when to go off on his own. It's a beautiful thing the rest and relationship he had/has with his father.
A few other thoughts:
- Everyone has been asking me about next year. Despite my frustrations and lots of questions, I still don't know. I am waiting to hear back on some questions I have about financial need from the school. At this point I can't imagine doing anything else next year, but I still hate not knowing for sure. So for now, I am trying to enjoy each day and where I am at.
- My students are still providing me with so much joy and a purpose to each day. However, they are definitely starting to turn into middleschoolers. Prayers would be appreciated as I learn to help them prepare for the next stage in their lives.
Somethings I have been doing lately:
- lots of school
- helping with youth group
- helping with nursery at church
- Bible Study
- Book Study on Multiply
- hanging out with people
- got to have my parents come visit! and go on an awesome vacation too! Loved it!
Prayer Requests:
- My students: that they would hunger after God and ask questions and learn from me daily
- answers and provision for next year
- the ability to say yes and no to things when necessary
Until next time,
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