The Project
What if your teacher told you I have a special project for you. There is only one right way for you to do it. If you mess up even one part of the project, you will fail completely. But here's the thing, I'm not really going to give you any directions on how to complete it. Good luck.
I can't imagine how stressful it would be to try and complete such a project. I know that no teacher would ever give a project like this. Yet, sometimes this is how I view God. He has give me this is extremely exact plan for my life, and I must make all the right choices or I fail completely. But He won't tell me how to do it. I have realized that this is not how God operates. MY decisions are important, but if I am seeking after God, my decisions are going to produce the proper fruit for him. This week I had to relax as I was thinking about making some major decisions for the next year and realize that God has a far better idea of what is going on and my choice, specifically in this case isn't going to cause me to fail in following him.
Sometimes God does give us specific answers: Yes, do this. No, wait. etc. He never wants us to walk in disobedience to him in our choices. Yet, sometimes we are faced with decisions where both options are good, neither is disobeying God. In those situations in the past, there have been times where God has used people, sermons, songs, devotions, and much more to show me which direction I should go. But this time I was clueless. Then I felt a reassurance: You are so small in comparison to God. You and your choices can't mess up God's big plans. I knew then that I needed to make a choice and then wait for the confirmation to come.
So with all that being said, I have decided that I will be spending another year here in Honduras. After I made the decision, I felt much more at peace. I have felt confirmation that I am making the right choice. But first I needed to make the choice. It's interesting to see how God works and to try and understand the will of God. I will never know the plans that God has for me until he unfolds them. But I can trust that they are good. I can trust that he will guide me. I can trust that they are even more than all that I can ask or imagine.
On a final note, I would like to share how much I appreciate all of you. God has simply been lavishing his love upon me over the past few weeks through others. He has given me so many people in my life to bless me. Through their giving, encouragement, silliness, love, and even telling me like it is when I need to hear it. This past week I was talking with a friend here about my friends and family at home and realized how incredibly special it is that I have so many people that I love and that love me. I have friends that I have literally had my whole life and we remain friends. I have friends that were in my life for a very short season of time, maybe two months or so, yet still can remain some of my closest and dearest friends. Sometimes I struggle with realizing that I can't possibly keep up with so many people at once. And I really can't. Sometimes I fail miserably at being a friend. But I see the blessings and I see how each one has touched my life, and I don't regret giving my heart to these people. Then, I see the people who I have the privilege of doing life with on a daily basis here in Honduras and I add them to my list. Life is full of seasons and changes in relationships, but I have definitely come to believe they are worth it. I pray that my life would be a blessing that would draw the hearts of those who meet me closer to God. I pray that they would also feel God's blessing and God's love lavished on them through me.
I can't imagine how stressful it would be to try and complete such a project. I know that no teacher would ever give a project like this. Yet, sometimes this is how I view God. He has give me this is extremely exact plan for my life, and I must make all the right choices or I fail completely. But He won't tell me how to do it. I have realized that this is not how God operates. MY decisions are important, but if I am seeking after God, my decisions are going to produce the proper fruit for him. This week I had to relax as I was thinking about making some major decisions for the next year and realize that God has a far better idea of what is going on and my choice, specifically in this case isn't going to cause me to fail in following him.
Sometimes God does give us specific answers: Yes, do this. No, wait. etc. He never wants us to walk in disobedience to him in our choices. Yet, sometimes we are faced with decisions where both options are good, neither is disobeying God. In those situations in the past, there have been times where God has used people, sermons, songs, devotions, and much more to show me which direction I should go. But this time I was clueless. Then I felt a reassurance: You are so small in comparison to God. You and your choices can't mess up God's big plans. I knew then that I needed to make a choice and then wait for the confirmation to come.
So with all that being said, I have decided that I will be spending another year here in Honduras. After I made the decision, I felt much more at peace. I have felt confirmation that I am making the right choice. But first I needed to make the choice. It's interesting to see how God works and to try and understand the will of God. I will never know the plans that God has for me until he unfolds them. But I can trust that they are good. I can trust that he will guide me. I can trust that they are even more than all that I can ask or imagine.
On a final note, I would like to share how much I appreciate all of you. God has simply been lavishing his love upon me over the past few weeks through others. He has given me so many people in my life to bless me. Through their giving, encouragement, silliness, love, and even telling me like it is when I need to hear it. This past week I was talking with a friend here about my friends and family at home and realized how incredibly special it is that I have so many people that I love and that love me. I have friends that I have literally had my whole life and we remain friends. I have friends that were in my life for a very short season of time, maybe two months or so, yet still can remain some of my closest and dearest friends. Sometimes I struggle with realizing that I can't possibly keep up with so many people at once. And I really can't. Sometimes I fail miserably at being a friend. But I see the blessings and I see how each one has touched my life, and I don't regret giving my heart to these people. Then, I see the people who I have the privilege of doing life with on a daily basis here in Honduras and I add them to my list. Life is full of seasons and changes in relationships, but I have definitely come to believe they are worth it. I pray that my life would be a blessing that would draw the hearts of those who meet me closer to God. I pray that they would also feel God's blessing and God's love lavished on them through me.
great writing and insight!
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